birthday!

well it is officially my birthday today -- and i've gotten bombarded with emails and happy wishes. but it makes me feel very sad that i cannot be home for my birthday, even if i am 24 now! i'm a big sap. it's always nice to be dotted on by your parents and whatnot.

so the colts won -- keeping their perfect record, 11-0 baby! my dad, foolishly, bet against them and now owes me lunch when i go home for winter break. haha :-) foolish man...no, just kidding. but who in their right mind would bet against the colts, especially when they are playing at home?

well, finished a few things that i needed to get done for the internship and class. unfortunately, people seem to not be checking their emails or wanting to write me back, so i'm sort of in limbo over a few things. thanks a lot RM!

next semester, i want to work as many hours as possible at mezza luna and get another part-time job since i won't have the internship. it was really weird and random, but last night i couldn't go to sleep because i was really really worried about not finding a job after i graduate. i don't really have any money saved up, i would be loosing my school job since i would be done with school and would need to find another job pronto to pay the bills and whatnot. it's really scary! i don't know how some people do it...i'm keeping my fingers crossed that some of these jobs that i have been applying to will surface and offer me a position or something...or that john will be able to find me something. he's such a sweet guy, but totally forgetful! he says one thing and totally forgets it the next day -- sometimes makes me wonder how he gets through the week. i swear he would leave his head behind someplace if it wasn't attached to his body - lol.

yay, countdown till i get off work...4 hours and 23 minutes.

worrying will get me nowhere

i know i worry way too much -- about my future, money, grades...but even though i do it all the time and know it doens't really help my situation, i do it still. example: worried a lot about a huge paper and ended up getting an a- on it (which is basically the highest score this professor gives). worry constantly about money, which is very normal. but somehow i get by and sometimes with a few dollars to spare. my life is crazy right now...
work tonight was very slow and the people who came in were not very nice or friendly. kind of makes you wonder if it's just them or you...
trying to figure out my schedule for next semester. definitely keeping the restaurant job but really debating about the internship -- if i do keep it, then i wouldn't have to worry about finding a job for next semester - plus it pays so well. but, i would be commuting to indy in the winter -- do i really want to risk that? but then, it would give me time to see john since i'll be down there. arg....

harry potter mania!

so harry potter came out in theaters last night -- and unfortunately, there's only one place that it's showing here in muncie. so, tickets were all sold out for last night -- but luckily, got tix for tonight's 10:20 showing. yay. cannot wait to see it, looks very good! besides, i'm such a potter nut it wouldn't really matter if it was good or not.
well, i was suppose to come in earlier today to get some work done for the internship and paper but the lazy person that i am -- slept in, went shopping and watched kill bill vol.1. and then got some ice cream at dairy queen with kara. it feels like a saturday just because i haven't done anything absolutely productive...which feels really good though. i wish i could do it more often.

missing john a lot. i haven't talked to him since monday and i wonder how he is doing in colorado -- hopefully getting his work done and getting some rest and relaxation in -- the last thing he needs is more drama. seriously never thought i would meet someone who has that much drama in his life...

nothing else really exciting other than thanksgiving is quickly approaching...

on-line shopping

what is it about shopping on-line? is it the convenience, the ability to browse a hundred things in about a minute, not having to deal with other people or waiting in line that makes it so great? maybe...for me though, it's more of a "pre-shopping" experience. i see what stores have on sale, what kind of items they have before i want to get in my car and drive all the way there to only realize that they have nothing i want. just saves a lot of time! right now, the shopaholic that i am, am looking for the perfect sweater. sure, i already have a gazillion of them, but my body seems to keep changing all the time. one year i'll be more slender, the next i feel like my torso has shrunk, etc. last year i think i had lost some weight and felt good about myself. this year, with all the stress and whatnot, have gained a few pounds and do not feel comfortable in any of my clothes. so -- always the great excuse, want to buy some new ones. i know i should probably just wait for christmas, but i never seem to get exactly what i want...my family seriously has the worst taste in clothing! i like to pick out what i want, which to my mother's dismay, "ruins the christmas experience." hey, you'd rather want me to like the present than hate it, right??

hopefully going out to dinner tonight with the roomie...except for the fact she lost a whole wad of cash -- hopefully she found it. it sucks loosing money!!! last night went out to motini's with a friend from work and just enjoyed sipping on a cosmopolitan and gossiping about work and people. yes, i'm such the girly girl...cannot help it.

november already?

i'm already counting the days until thanksgiving -- then my birthday :-) i think it will go by quickly, the rest of this semester. i'm just afraid of the future - of where i'll be, where i'll be working, etc. it's all very scary.
tomorrow i have my interview for my internship next semester and summer...definitely keep the fingers crossed and hope everything works out. i'm hoping it will lead into a full-time position, that i'll make a very good impression and work the way they want so they don't want to let me go. is that too much to ask for?
chatted with J for a few minutes -- he's very tired and had a contract to finish so i didn't want to keep him up. sigh...men.
i think tonight i want to go out and get a drink or something....i haven't gone out in such a long time and i missed all the halloween parties over the weekend. i just want to relax, drink a few and get a good 10 hours of sleep in -- nice huh?
nothing too new else to report -- life continues...have another job interview friday for a waitressing job. my current one isn't giving me a whole lot of hours so i'm not sure what to do...i asked about it today and didn't really get a straight forward answer - i was like what the heck...oh well. i need to look out for myself - that's all i can do.

Happy times! 

Roman baths 

happy status

so maybe my life is turning itself back around -- i think i'm going to be okay. or least that is what i keep telling myself. i have at least one solid job that will bring in some income and a possibility of a good internship next semester and summer. i wonder how much they pay -- that is the most important question. yes, i am a bit obsessed over money. can't help it. it's because i have none.
my dad is still here, enjoying his little mini break. i asked him what the heck he does all day i am gone -- sleep, read and take walks. man, sounds like my kind of life! lol.
really looking forward to the end of the semester -- which will bring a huge sigh of relief as well as anxiety. will i get a job, where, how much will it pay, can i afford to live by myself paying for everything, will i be lonely, will i make friends at work...the list goes on. but for now, i am going to keep my happy status.