truly content

these past few days i've come to the realization how truly content i am in my life right now. for once i feel i am in the right place doing the right things with the right people. i feel my life is bursting at the seams with happiness and goodness. and as much as i do complain...i realize i really have no reason to. i cannot believe i am done with my master's...that i have a good job (even though it's not what i thought it was going to be) and amazing people in my life that i can and will always call my friends...how lucky am i? and blessed! makes me really wonder what i have done right to deserve all of this.

missing the people in my life

even though people are in my life there are moments that i feel they really aren't and i miss them so much. people go their own ways...they are busy and so am i. and i wish that things could just be back to normal, that i could rewind time and live it all over again.
life goes by so quickly and i wonder if i am missing out on something...or someone. people come and go so quickly i wonder if that's how the rest of my life is going to be -- will it just be a flashing of people in and out of my life and that's it? is it just going to be people in and out of my life...and me feeling as if i were standing still.

more drama

i have to say that my life is one big soap opera...drama, drama, and some more drama. can't seem to stay away from it. is it just me or just the situations that i find myself in? i guess it's a little bit of both...but then i guess my life would be pretty boring without it...
anyway. life continues. can't believe it's already june. this summer is going to go by pretty fast. and i'm sort of scared cause i have absolutely no idea what the heck i'm suppose to be doing, where i'm suppose to go, etc. i'm hoping everything is going to be okay, but i'm just really being quite pessimistic about all of it right now.
blah. work tonight - i will probably have to close. but then i shouldn't complain too much since i have to earn money. i just hate knowing i'm going to be there till 10 or later while everyone else gets to leave...sometimes i really hate my job.