it's been awhile

wow, it's been a long time since i've written on this...so much has happened. i moved and i love it! i love where i am and it seems like everything has fallen right into place - it's strange. working a really great job, but right now it's just a contract position. hoping it will turn into something permanent. the company is amazing and the people i work with are darlings.
right now i'm starting to realize how quickly people come and go in your life. my friends, the ones i hate to see leave, are doing exactly that. they are going their own directions...it's so sad and i wonder if life is always this cruel. why does it take the people who mean the most to you away, leaving this dark hole. and i hate to think that maybe someone else will come along but how long will they stay?
trying to figure out exactly what i want for my life. right now things are pretty much perfect. i guess i'm just afraid of what might happen in the future 3 or 6 months down the road. will i be just as happy then or happier? or will i wonder how everything just fell apart?