the holiday season

wow...cannot believe christmas is just around the corner. the holiday season - it's sooo crazy. the chaos, stress, shopping...all these emotions building for one day and wham, it's done. over in a minute. it's pretty crazy how we put so much in for just one single day. i might be the one person who doesn't really look forward to it. sure it's great getting time off of work, hanging with the family and getting presents. but sometimes i wonder if it's really worth it!
things are going well with me...or at least i try to tell myself that. not really sure what will happen, where i am headed or why the fact i have absolutely no answers to any of my questions concerning life. sigh. i'm just hoping that i can keep a clear head about things - to be positive about the future and where i'm headed and what i might be doing. it's such a blurry uncertainty, one that makes me question every decision or mistake i've made. have i been living my life completely wrong?