back to the past

well i decided the best thing for me right now is to go back to my old job. it sucks, but it's basically the only thing i can do. i haven't really been able to find another job that isn't serving or retail. so i might as well go back to a place i know well and have friends at. it's not exactly what i imagined for my life, but it's just something that i have to do...hopefully i will go in there with a better attitude, just be happier and not let so much stuff bother me. i don't know...all i can ask for is a job that pays enough for my bills and crap.
life...i just don't understand. i thought it was going to be a lot better than this. but i can't really complain cause i still have my health, i have a place all to myself, good friends and family. i'm trying not to be so pessimistic.