where am i going?

i feel that i'm just running in circles. different choices, different roads. and where am i headed? i wish i knew. then i would maybe be happier. sometimes i feel that i have this huge facade hiding my true self. and it is definitely starting to crack. am i hating the person that i have become? nothing really new has happened. i'm looking for jobs and wondering if i will find anything. i'm starting to get pretty desperate cause i'm just sitting here with nothing to do. and the only exciting thing that happens to me is when my friends call...well if they call anyway. they're all working. i do have a few interviews set up but who knows if they will pan out. i'm so scared...my future seems to always be a few inches away from my fingertips, always eluding me. where am i going?