waiting for a revelation

sometimes i feel that things in my life just seem to hit me all of a sudden. one minute i'm blinded and then the next i'm totally seeing things in a different light. and people as well. things are going a lot better, that's for sure. and i'm definitely not complaining. i was definitely going through this depression thing. i am hoping it isn't something that will repeat itself...
i'm looking forward to the rest of the year, seeing where it will lead me. and i'm really not sure where i will be, even though i say i know exactly where i want to go or where i want to end up. i was pretty sure that i wanted to move back east, see where it might lead me. but now...well i'm not really sure cause i kind of want to stay with my friends, wherever they go. sigh...decisions, decisions, decisions. it's like i'm going to disappoint someone no matter what i do. wish i could be more than one person at a time.