regrets?

right now i'm holding a lot of regrets....regrets of staying around for another year thinking that my life was going to be full of fun and just hanging out with people who mean a lot in my life. but as of right now i'm feeling a sense of loss, wondering if i'm walking blindly into the future thinking that i'm going to be okay. nope...i kind of just want to turn around and run away now. i guess right now i'm looking at people in a different light. and wondering if they are going to stay in my life or not. and sometimes i have to look at my own self and wonder if it's me...do i drive people away, do i ruin my friendships getting tired of them so quickly? i don't know...i guess i'm wanting this "perfect relationship" and when i don't get what i want or expect i am no longer interested. i don't know...really confused right now. i don't know what to do or what to say. i guess i'm just really confused or stressed...or just not very happy at all. and i'm not really happy. i guess i just thought things were going to be different and this is how it has turned out.