not really sure

it's 4 in the morning and i'm still awake. i don't know why i can't fall asleep. so instead of tossing and turning for another hour i thought i would listen to some of my favorite music and blog for awhile, hoping it might tire me out. i'm not sure if it is because i'm stressing out about little stuff, or because i slept a lot last night and am paying for it now. a lot has happened in the past week. i think i realized that i need to get a new job and thus i put in my two weeks notice. kind of silly of me to do when i don't have another job lined up. but i have some money saved up and i'm hoping whatever happens happens...to my benefit that is. and i also realized how precious and few really good friends are. i guess i was taking people for granted in my life. i just assumed they would always be there, there for me, living in the same place for the rest of our lives. and we would spend every free minute together. but i realized that people have to grow up, that the past is the past and it's never going to be the way it was, no matter how much you want it to be. so that's my fault. i'm starting to wonder what i've done these past three years. have i accomplished anything, or anything significant anyways. sure i'm almost done with my master's, but it sure hasn't helped me find a good pr job. i'm still stuck in this limbo that is called life after graduation. i want to be an adult with responsibilities....will that ever happen for me? i guess things are just crashing down on me. and i'm kind of scared.