start of something new

it's always interesting starting a new relationship, if it be a new friendship or something romantic. there is the excitment, the nervousness...different emotions and the time and effort it takes to keep it going and hopefully enough to last. not sure where i am right now...my relationships are all over the place. some are new, some are really blossoming while others are starting to die. and with those ones, am i sad? sure, i've committed to them for the past few years but sometimes you just have to let them go. and maybe that is what i'm doing. i'm getting so tired of working at them with really nothing in return. and i've come to realize that sometimes things just aren't meant to last, even though you want them to so badly.
but my new ones...well i'm just hoping for the best with those. i can't wait for the next few months cause i think i will be really happy. i think i've finally met the one i can see myself with for a long time. but i don't want to jinx it....