uncertainty

so i'm still waiting for the job...to see if i got it or didn't...i'm sitting on pins and needles, wondering if i got it, wondering if i didn't. and what will happen if i didn't get it, will i stay in muncie or try to move somewhere else? will i be able to find a job wherever i move? will things be okay? a part of me doesn't want to move away from my friends, but then i can't hold myself back because of that. and a lot of my close friends have moved on as well. i guess i like to hold on to people, things, places...it's never easy to pack up and move to a new place where you don't know anyone, where you have to start everything all over again. but then it can be a good thing too...when you want to start fresh, where you don't want people to know who you are cause maybe you want to be someone else...to act differently from before. i guess i'm just waiting to see what will happen...if i will be starting a new chapter in my life or just keeping the same chapter open. it's hard to wait cause of the anticipation...sucks.