grrr....

don't really know what's going on. people are going their own way, doing their own thing and i feel as if i'm just standing still, waiting. but for what? i feel i have absolutely no control of my life, no control of anything anymore. is it just the end of the semester woes, the feeling of everything coming down to an end that makes it so difficult? is it saying good-bye to friends, fearing that i'm going to be loosing friendships that have been so precious to me this past semester? i guess it's just everything rolled into one and i'm just not really up to it...not strong enough to handle it. grrr...
i just hope everything works out, that's all. i hope i get this job, hope that i keep in touch with everyone, get to visit them during the summer and be happy. i hate saying good-bye.