last week....

...of classes that is. gosh, i cannot believe how fast this semester went by -- a part of me is pretty sad that it's practically over but another part of me is really incredibly happy. christmas break will hopefully be nice and relaxing, lots of sleep, good food and whatnot before my last semester as a college student. how sad and wonderful at the same time :-)
so i guess john and i are in a good place...or at least that is what he keeps saying. i just wish he saw what was wrong in our relationship, or maybe i shouldn't be so picky. can't help it - i'm a very parnaoid person who sees these weird things that i guess no one else seems to...that's just me!
have a lot of opportunities ahead of me - but they don't really seem to revolve around a full-time job like a normal person. i have my ideal job in mind and right now no one is hiring for that. so i know i have to buckle down and just get a job that will pay the rent and bills and whatnot. but then do i really want to settle after 6 years of education? it's almost like i am throwing it away for anything that comes along. decisions, decisions, decision!
and...i really want a dog! i've been researching and looking at what dogs are in the animal shelters around the area and i just want to adopt all of them. it's really sad that people just get rid of their pets. but - it wouldn't be fair to get one and in six months have to give it up because i have to move across the country. i know i should wait until i'm settled in a place i know i'll be for a while, but i just love dogs and i really want one...